Never Enough

No matter how hard I try, I will never be enough.  Not to anyone around me.  I can't please everyone, yet I try everyday. 

"For do I now persuade men or God, or do I seek to please men?  For if I still pleased men, I would not be a bondservant of Christ." Galatians 1:10

I worry about attending this activity or that activity or saying no to one person and yes to another.  I get caught up in trying to make time for everyone, trying to give everyone my all, trying to meet everyone's needs.  Only One deserves my all.  But, I'm so busy giving everyone else my all, that He only gets a portion, when He's supposed to get the whole pie and divvy it out Himself in the first place. 

If you can't tell, I've been thinking a lot about priorities and how I spend my time, mainly because I can't seem to get enough of it (time) lately.  It's caused me to reexamine what I'm really doing and who I'm spending time with. 

God laid Mark 12:29-31 on my heart: Jesus answered him, "The first of all the commandments is: ‘Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one. And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength.’This is the first commandment.  And the second, like it, is this: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no other commandment greater than these.”

First things first.  Love God with everything I have in me.  Second things next.  Love others with the love of Christ. 

Instead of considering what I do according to my own reasoning, I should be asking God what He wants me to do.  God- do you think I should go to dinner with them?  God- what do YOU want me to do this weekend?  God- how do I waste time?  God- can you teach me how to use my time wisely?  Because "my time" isn't really "my time" in the first place, it's God's.