What Did You Worship Today?

I worshipped....

my job.
school/homework.
food.

Not God.
He wasn't first.
He was on a shelf and He belongs on a throne.
I know that in my heart, but it doesn't translate in my life.

I blame myself.
I feel guilty, I feel human.
I feel guilty that I'm human.
I can't do it on my own.  I can't will it on my own.
I can't do it on my own.

How long will it take for surrender?
Why is it so hard for me to understand?
I want it.  I do.
But I don't get it.

What did you worship today?